Neil Bogi.

Ok so We have lost three people from our 30 people program, and we are all a little on edge about who might be the next to go- threatening that we are NOT allowed to loose anyone else. Over the most bang for your buck beers at kelly's Skyler and I both came to the conclusion that it would surely be one of us- the next to walk the plank that is.

"Skyler... Thats it, I am definately the next to get booted out of the class..." I texted today after finally looking up my login- user name 'neilbogi' who even is this neil bogi? he's the one that did so shitty, clearly.

I got the lowest grade in the class on the PACKRAT. Do you even know what is like to get average?? now take that, dwindle down the 50 percent that are below you and you will find yourself amongst the ranks of the few, the shameful, the dissappointments of our day, with me.

"O thank god" texted skyler

Ok Right. lets get some perspective-put on those rose colored glasses for a minute- nay those polarized glasses, because as candice and I talked about, they make the colors around you so vibrant, and make the dull and ordinary into something extrodinary. So this "PACKRAT" was the prep test for the PANCE that we will take at the end of our studies, following graduation, and it does not count for anything right now, mearly a measure of our capabilitys, or lack there of.

Whatever, just funny that it happened on the same day Alex called to tell me he got honors in surgery. eh, what did I expect.

Here is how I have decided to see it- it is like running a 17 minute mile (or in the case of my score an hour mile) in PE at the beginning of the school year- that way when you have to do it again in 6 months you can cut your time in half (or in my case double your score) Basically I am shooting for black horse, most improved, break out artist of the year.

Fact of the matter is- I am terrrrrible at medicine. But I am terrible at everything to begin with, we have talked about this. It just sucks, because its not like I am not trying, I study. a lot. actually. I am thinking of cutting back. trimming the fat one might say.