Albuquerque has also opened up a new rhelm of expression, enthusiasm, and independance for me. Sometimes I think San Diego was a little jaded on me. Here- all my quarky little habits are for some reason being genuinely appreciated by those around me- I mean maybe its just my ego to the point where I will be able to participate in the balloon festival because my head is so full of hot air- but its just really nice.
Zoey has never met some one who will come home and whip out 40 cupcakes with roses because she wants to, or will cook each night and read the introductions to cook books- she says I inspire her to be creative and industrious.
My rediculous emails are appreciated or at least commented on routinely by classmates, and I have never been so thanked for giving a creative presentation.
The thing is I am not even afraid of being judged for having too much time, because that isnt even true- I just choose to spend my time doing these things, these are my priorities, self preservation. God, to have this level of control over what I do each day- its amazing. I know it is terribly selfish, but I love not having to take anyone else into account- I do exactly what I want to do and what is good for me each day. Its true someday I hope to live for someone else, whether patients, a husband, children- I dont know. But I can just be selfish right now, and I love it. see I am too 22.
Zoey has never met some one who will come home and whip out 40 cupcakes with roses because she wants to, or will cook each night and read the introductions to cook books- she says I inspire her to be creative and industrious.
My rediculous emails are appreciated or at least commented on routinely by classmates, and I have never been so thanked for giving a creative presentation.
The thing is I am not even afraid of being judged for having too much time, because that isnt even true- I just choose to spend my time doing these things, these are my priorities, self preservation. God, to have this level of control over what I do each day- its amazing. I know it is terribly selfish, but I love not having to take anyone else into account- I do exactly what I want to do and what is good for me each day. Its true someday I hope to live for someone else, whether patients, a husband, children- I dont know. But I can just be selfish right now, and I love it. see I am too 22.
